Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Midsummer post

This year is turning out to be kinda strange.  I feel like things are moving at a pace that I have no control over, but nothing significant is happening.  It's like chipping away at a large stone, waiting to find that one perfect spot where the whole thing will crumble and reveal the goodies underneath.

Feeling like I'm treading water is no new sensation to me, but this time is different.  There's a certain anticipation that has been building.  I'm back in school, with only 2 classes left for a certificate and a professional license in my field.  I've been working less, but it feels like I'm hemorrhaging money, with the promise of more clients or performing new duties on the horizon.

I've somehow decided amid all of the school and work stress, that I would be going to NY Comic Con with my sister.  I've been learning how to sew garments, with my sister and mother teaching me, for costumes.  The excitement for Comic Con between the two of us, is immense.  Maybe the feeling of impending awesomeness, is just the thrill of planning a cool trip with my sister where we can just geek out together, maybe it's the promise of furthering my career goals by the end of the year...I'm not sure.  It's all of the above, and more.

I am impatient, especially when it comes to waiting for things to happen.  There are some things that just need to unfold over time, and I have to embrace the feeling of being out of control.  Enjoy the ride.

Monday, January 20, 2014

Back to school

I did it.  I started school again!  That exclamation point is placed with a kind of nervous excitement, the kind that is tinged with a bit of dread and loathing.  To clarify, I like being in school. I enjoy learning, but I really dislike the mundane aspects of school work. Sitting down to type papers or write essays does not appeal to me. I look forward to the days when I'm fully licensed as a counselor and I can take short continuing education classes that interest me without homework and tests. 

Anyhooooo...it adds a layer of stress to the new year, but I know it will be over sooner than it seems. I will be going part time and continuing to work part time.  By August of this year, I'm hoping to be done and ready to start outpatient counseling with adults.  Taking more classes was a hard decision, but I realized that I will be stuck moving laterally in mental health unless I get my license.  I am looking forward to moving on to a wider variety of career options! 

Happy New Year! Let's make it a good one!