Crafting Rage

I have been busy at work with counselor stuff (yeah, that's a technical term), but I have also experienced a bump in sales over at Etsy lately.  These butter earrings have surpassed every other item in my shop as the best seller.  I'm certainly not complaining, but at this point, I'd love to add an extra day each week to get stuff done.  

Lately I am starting to think, if I could spend every day crafting, I might actually be able to make a career out of it.  But getting started on that would involve quitting my job, and that would be extremely scary.  Also, I always wonder if I might start to hate crafting if it was my job.  Once, a long time ago, in a land far, far away, I was an art major in college.  During the course of that year, I started to hate doing art.  Producing work on demand, and to the specifications requested by someone else, can be stressful to say the least.  I was so miserable with performing like a painting monkey, that I didn't create anything for a while after I dropped out.  Right now I enjoy crafting/painting when I can, and there's part of me that is afraid I will ruin it if I try too hard.  

The other layer to this crap cake is that I feel scattered (I am certain I'm not alone in this).  However, I feel like I could be happy doing so many different things in life, that I get stagnant in making choices or moving on from a bad situation.  I have never been super happy in my current job, but none of the other options have felt right to me.  That fact has kept me in an unhappy employment situation for 1 1/2 years now.  I guess the biggest lesson I've learned lately is that making any choice is better than getting stuck in the waiting for something to happen! I may or may not be on the precipice of a big change, but I guess time will tell.   

For now, I will keep releasing frustrations by pushing this button throughout the day.  Enjoy! 

It's a start...

I really don't have any idea what I'm doing...

I don't think anyone really does.  Its all an illusion of knowledge, to give us a feeling of control in life.  Tomorrow, what you know is different than today, and today, you may prove wrong what you were SO sure of yesterday.  I feel like the best thing we could all do as human race, is to acknowledge that we don't really know anything at all.  We're all just muddling through the best we can.  And don't get me wrong, I love life.  I say this with a conviction that life is awesome and keep muddling we must.  That's where the fun is.   

So, on that note, I start this blog.  I don't really know what the purpose of it is.  I may chat about crafting, I may bitch about the hassle of eating gluten free, I may rant about Star Wars or other sci fi topics...I'm not sure if I'll have a real focus yet.  I am interested in so many things, I would find it hard to stick to one area.  I'm off running...lets just hope there's some interesting things along the way...